I am on the way to the gym at 9am Saturday, February 1st,
2003. The man on the radio said that Columbia is on its way back to earth, and
I think, great...I can watch it land.
When Mission Control announces that they have lost
contact with the shuttle and we see broken pieces
of the shuttle falling across the blue Texas sky I know I've added another flashbulb moment
to my life.
I wish I could remember the good moments so clearly
as Kennedy's assassination, Apollo 1's fire, or Challenger's fall from the sky.
I wish I could remember the names of the astronauts
we've lost, American, Russian, and now Israeli. Since most of the astronauts
lost in the exploration of space have been American, a nation made up wholly of
immigrants, the whole world has been included.
The whole world mourns.
But this time there is a new feeling of dread mixed
with the sadness, none survived the mach 18 destruction of Columbia 40 miles
above the earth, and yet there is one more victim lying in critical condition
while we hover around watching monitors and wondering.
The Space Age is dying.
I grew up with the Space Age. In elementary school I
wrote reports about the Mercury astronauts and satellites. I watched Neil
Armstrong step out onto the moon and muff his first line. I waited while Apollo
13 limped home, the original...not the one with Tom Hanks. And I brought a TV
into work so we could all watch the launch of Challenger that fateful morning in
January.
It's like watching an old friend who's had another
heart attack. How many more can it take?
That's up to us. Is space a legacy we want to leave
the generations that come after, or a dream of youth we can abandon as we grow
older? What will we leave behind us? A few wars and a burned out economy? A few
milestones, left as markers for what could have been, but without any path to
the peaks beyond?
President Bush said precious little about new
frontiers in his state of the union address, but it's new frontiers that make an
economy grow. Returning to space is just the sort of thing that our world needs
to kick start it again, for all the old reasons, from the gifts that new
technology brings, to the understanding of how ecosystems work, to the ability
to stand back form this marvelous blue marble floating in the void and to see
that it's one world, fragile and shared.
The shuttle was never designed to fly forever. The
tiles were the weakest link from the start. Yet, it has served us well as a
stepping stone to space, and we will no doubt continue using it until the
remaining three are worn out or overtaken by disaster. Nothing lives forever.
We knew there would be a cost in human life in our
expansion into space. That's not the tragedy. The tragedy will be if we choose
to waste those lives rather than to make them an investment in what comes next.
For my money, and as a taxpayer, it is my money, I'd
like to see some serious effort made to develop new shuttles...and not
overpriced boondoggles like the now abandoned X-33. For a start I'd put my money
into something simple and affordable, like the Delta Clipper SSTO that NASA
abandoned.
I'll be asking some friends in the space community
for their thoughts on what our future is and reporting back here on what they
say. My thought is that we need to build more and better ways to get to low
earth orbit, our doorstep to space. Let others go to Mars and beyond...but let
us be the ones whose shoulders they stand on to do it.
It's time for those of us who grew up with in the
space age to dig into the money that we made on the technologies that came out
of it (You do realize that the personal computer is the direct result of
miniaturized electronics for spaceflight...right?) and put it into something
that we can leave those that come after.
Ernest Lilley
Editor - TechRevu
02/03/03f